All I want

Is a couple of days of peace. No crisis and no one to bring me down, I don't need help being depressed I do just fine on my own.

All I want is:
a nice quiet room somewhere, with room service, a view of the ocean.
a cabin in the woods
a massage, my hair, nails done
a huge tub full of bubbles to soak in
a man to snuggle with on the couch
a horse ride on the beach
to go sailing for a few days
to take a road trip
a quiet place to do some primal screaming
thighs that don't rub together
a flat tummy
clothes that fit
a moonlight walk on the beach
a little poofy puppy
the horse I was promised but never got
to be loved for me, even when I'm acting crazy
to lay on a hillside and watch the clouds
to feel free
to go ghost hunting
to finish my family tree
to find what I'm searching for
to decide what I want to be when I grow up
to be able to feel joy again